July 12, 2007

Hate Is Just A Word For Somebody You Love, But No Longer Believe In




“toata lumea iubeste pe cine nu trebuie” spunea cineva zilele trecute.
Credeam ca eu sunt in cacat, dar femeia de langa mine iubeste un nemernic mai mare decat al meu. Niste ochi albastri absolut superbi, si un decolteu imbietor care-mi atrage ca un magnet privirea. Eu sunt ignorabila, ba si dificila pe deasupra (vorba lui), dar ea? Ea e o femeie incredibil de frumoasa, si desteapta, care asteapta rabdatoare ca nemernicul sa aiba chef sa o ‘vada’. Si, cand el nu mai raspunde din senin la telefon, si-i respinge apelurile, ea nu poate decat sa planga, si sa regrete sms-ul suparat pe care i l-a trimis intr-un moment de impertinenta “te rog frumos, suna-ma. Vreu doar sa stiu daca e totul ok. Nu inteleg ce s-a intamplat”

Nici eu nu inteleg ce naiba l-a apucat. CE NAIBA L-A APUCAT? Hei – ce bine de mine! Al meu (acum) ma suna inapoi. Ba chiar, de o vreme, imi raspunde si la sms-uri. Wait… nu e al meu. Eu sunt cantitate neglijabila.


“ba nu poti sa-mi zici “fuck off!”
imi reproseaza el cu siguranta de sine.
Ma simt slaba si vinovata. Am gasit 2 apeluri ratate de la el, si l-am sunat imediat inapoi. S-o fi intamplat ceva. Nu e genul lui sa sune de 2 ori. Cateva ore mai tarziu, ii explic, prin sms, de ce nu i-am raspuns. Doua ore in care m-am uitat de 100 de ori la telefon. Era in priza, mergea ok, si – da, chiar ma sunase. De 2 ori. S-o fi intamplat ceva. Sunt o femeie disperata si nesigura. D’aia nu ma iubeste, d’aia nimic din ce fac n-o sa conteze niciodata pentru el. Barbatii, cica, iubesc femei puternice, care stiu ce vor. Femei care nu se lasa calcate in picioare. Femei care ii umilesc si-i abuzeaza. Abuzul e un semn de putere, intelegi? Sunt slaba si nepriceputa – si o sfarsesc singura si neiubita de nimeni. Asta daca n-o sa ma multumesc sa fiu amanta unuia. Aud ca se poarta. Se poarta femeile ‘mature’ care au viata ‘lor’ si nici nu observa ca el a sunat, sau nu; ca el iubeste, sau nu; femeile care se gandesc numai la ele. (daca-l prind p’ala care umple netu de cacaturi d’astea, ii rup gatul).
Are dreptate. Nu pot. Inca.

Intr-o lume de adulti crescuti peste noapte din copii ignorati si abuzati, tandretea, grija, afectiunea, altruismul nu sunt decat relicve ridicole. Nu pot sa ranesc omul pe care il iubesc. Il mai iubesc? Naiba stie? Iubirea asa… are un gust dulce-amar. Citisem – dar d’abia acum il inteleg. Imi sta in gat.


“credeam ca sunteti mai tanara!”
ma asigura groparul.
Cum isi permite zdrenturosul asta sa ma agate? Ce anume face sa fie rezonabila invitatia lui la o cafea? Ce dracu am avea noi de vorbit? Ce sa caute mainile lui, cu unghii pline de pamant, pe corpul meu? Indignarea ma amuteste, si ramane fara ecou: muncitorii carand saci de ciment, taximetristii, pustii de liceu care pica bacul cu 2, chiar si barbatii din masini scumpe care opresc langa mine pe strada si deschid portiera – eu sunt doar un corp, printre alte milioane de corpuri. Toate – mult mai disponibile decat al meu. Dezavantaj eu, ca’s fraiera. In fiecare an, fiecare generatie scoate pe piata cateva mii de corpuri proaspete. Ce am eu in plus fata de o ‘femeie’ de 14 ani? 15 ani de… experienta?


N-am nimic de oferit. Toate calitatile mele s-au transformat miraculos in cerinte, si conditii. Barbatul modern vrea sa se simta bine; are destule probleme la servici. Are destule lucruri importante, si mize in viata lui – eu nu trebuie sa fiu – nici importanta, nici miza. Trebuie sa fiu ‘acolo’, mereu acolo. Tacuta, ascultatoare, cuminte. Sau rea, amenintatoare, puternica? Nu mai stiu. Ma simt in plus, si probabil asa si sunt.


“Learn to accept your situation so that the healing process will not become blocked.”
Asta raspunde Universul strigatului meu disperat – ce sa fac???? Ce ma fac? Cum am ajuns aici? Cum naiba ies? “Don’t avoid doing the right thing when you know it to be right, only because it will entail hurt.” Care naiba e ‘the right thing”? Mai stie cineva? Credeam ca daca-mi urmez si-mi respect sentimetele, o sa fie bine. De ce ma tradeaza propriile mele sentimente? De ce iubesc pe cine nu trebuie? De ce cel care nu iubeste ma tine legata? La ce-i foloseste dragostea mea terfelita, calcata in picioare, umilita? Se sterge cu ea la fund? “No longer letting emotions get in the way of clear reasoning and decisiveness.” Asta trebuie sa fac. Stiu, de mult. De ce n-o fac? Ce ma opreste? Nu mai cred de mult jumatatile lui de adevar. Nu mai sper nimic. Viitorul e clar, si nu ma include. Viitorul a inceput ieri, si ieri nu s-a intamplat nimic. Trecutul e deja dincolo de granitele memoriei. Barbatul care-mi mangaia picioarele nu mai exista. Pentru ce mai lupt cu mine insami? “Cowardice, weakness, avoidance of necessary suffering despite the positive outcome.”




July 08, 2007

Does Astrology have any scientific validity?



de aici LindaLand Forum
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"The discovery of quantum nonlocality – the ability of particles to exert subtle influences on each other instantaneously across vast distances – is confirming the ancient mystical teaching that all things are profoundly interconnected. Quantum nonlocality might also explain extrasensory perception…. As well as the miraculous healing that results from prayer and other spiritual practices."

From "Rational Mysticism" by John Horgan

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Thomas Aquinas, medieval theologian extraordinaire, believed that if the moon could influence the tides of the ocean, then there was no reason why the planets couldn’t influence mankind. But even if we assume that ancient symbolism for various constellations is credible, can we honestly believe that the planets and stars making up these constellations exert a force on human beings at the time of birth that infuses them with character traits that pertain to these constellations?


For astrology to gain any scientific merit, a form of energy must be proven to extend from a constellation and have direct effect on the human body. The most likely candidates, science’s two most powerful types of energy, are gravity and electromagnetism.

by Mariapaula Karadimas
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does science?


do you actually know how 'scientific validity' is defined, measured and calculated?



that quote reflects a very simplistic mind - one that doesn't understand natural NECCESSITY - and looks for causality.

It maddens me when I have to explain to stupids that nothing ‘causes’ anything in this world – that things go about following their own nature – being themselves sort to speak.


When you add 1 to another 1, there’s no law that obliges them to ‘make’ a 2. IF only a human choice intervenes and decides to keep them confined to a GIVEN area (say ‘positive numbers’), they will always behave in the expected way – and that would be the given one. The one the human decided and defined. But should that area be different, their ways would change as well, and so would our expectation of the result.

Yet we always trust that '1 + 1 = 2' because it's their nature to do so. 2 follows naturally to 1, that's how we chose, and named them; that's why they're called 'natural numbers'; also, there are no no 1/2, or -1, or square-roots in nature; and we know it... we invented those numbers in order to comprehend nature; but we don't - we never expect to see them walking around, holding hands.
So – only a primitive expects to find ‘causes’ in the natural universe. And only a 4 year old would be amazed that the vase fell 3 meters away when I pulled the cord (simply cos the cord extending to the vase is not visible). and that 4 yo would look for cords everywhere - and that's called 'magical thinking' ('I make things happen in the world', "there has to be a cord', 'things happen when there is somebody pushing/puling them').


The line of thought along the lines of “stars causing people to do or be anything’ is beyond simplistic – is plain stupid.

We ‘read’ the stars bc our human nature makes us unable to see what’s right under our noses – but we can easier see what’s further away. We also forgot how to read the ‘human-signs’. Well… most of us, anyways… thankfully, astrology was written down and we can still learn it today.

Science is just a modern language we invented when we realised that we have no idea about the universe we inhabit. We INVENTED science.

The stars and the people simply ‘act’ according to natural laws – they follow the same TRENDS. when we look at the stars we simply see what's going on at the moment, in the universe. The Universe is dynamic - things move about and change all the time. (remember the ‘up-and-down’ principle of the ancient texts?).


The signs are everywhere. We just don’t know how to read them.



P.S. but when we're THIS stupid, maybe we don't deserve to know shit...
P.S.2 if you do have a good, solid argument, I'd love to know about it.
P.S.3 if you think 'astrology' is about newspaper horoscopes, DON'T waste my time.